Help me please.
I know I am supposed to serve God as a priest but I seem to keep messing that up.
I have had some great opportunities in my life to study with some great guys and some wonderful Religious Orders. I have no interest in pursuing the married life nor the single life. I know every Sunday I am called to be up at the alter but I can’t seem to figure out how.
What am I doing wrong? I have been with some great seminaries and I keep running away. I don’t even know how to ask the people at the seminary I really want to be with how to come back because I have ran from them so many times. What am I supposed to do? I hurt every Sunday because I am just sitting there knowing I can do more that sometimes, and I know this is satan pushing hard, but I skip Mass just because I am scared. But then as soon as possible I head right back to confession.
I just want to join a Religious Order and be done. But something at night scares me and I run. What am I supposed to do and how do I contact them about coming back and helping me stay??