My wife does not want to be with me anymore. We have been living together since 1993 and have been married since 2000. I have had anger issues all my life and she has had to listen to my long rants countless times through the years. I have hurled numerous insults and occasionally threats at her and she has finally had enough. I don’t blame her, mind you.
I’ve been a fallen-away Catholic for most of my adult life and I have attempted to go back to the Church several times over the years. But in the last year and a half it felt as though God was pulling me back to the Church stronger than ever- and I answer the call. I am currently on my third trip back in this last year and a half, and each time I returned my anger subsided more and more. Unfortunately, just when I’ve been making real improvements, my wife has decided to end it. After the last failed attempts she just can’t trust it anymore.
At the behest of my priest I’m currently in the process of seeking professional counseling for my issues, but my wife refuses to talk to anyone about anything. She is completely closed to any solutions. And on top of it all, she has started to spend countless hours on Facebook and other sites while drinking. She has been on the net drinking up to 12 beers till 6:00 AM on the weekends.
Needless to say- I’m an emotional mess right now.
I’ve dived into my faith in the last couple of months. I pray all the time for God’s grace to sustain me, and it has helped tremendously. I’ve started praying the Rosary with the intention to save my marriage, but I don’t know if that is God’s will. More than anything, I’m very frightened of the loneliness and despair that I will be facing when she leaves. The fear of that lonely hopelessness makes me panic sometimes. Especially now that the gloomy seasons of Fall and Winter are upon us.
I humbly ask anyone who would, to please pray for me.
I’m sorry I posted this long of a request, but I just feel better telling people about this.
So please, keep me in your prayers. And God bless everyone.