I have a wonderful dog - Shaw’s Roddy McDuff, C.D., C.D.X.
He came into my life five years ago, during a very low period, when I was periously close to losing my hard-fought for sobriety and my faith was thin. He has been a true gift from my Higher Power, My Lord and Savior Jesus Christ and with Roddy I have not only renwed my faith, I have kept my sobriety, stayed and grown closer to the Holy Mother Church and become more firmly rooted in my faith.
This last Tuesday Roddy was diagnosed with Lymphoma. It is not curable in canines. I could put him through a very expensive chemotherapy treatment but he would be horribly sicke from it and he would only have a 30% survival rate. I will NOT do that to my dog.
His biopsy, to confirm the diagnosis, was yesterday. We will be putting him on a treatment of steroids and cytoxin, which is a cancer drug, that will keep him comfortable until it is time for him to leave this earth.
I am, as most of you know, a sober alcoholic. I keep waiting for the selfish, self-centered alcoholic in me to rear her ugly head and start whining: why me? why does this always happen to me? Instead, while I am very, very sad I find myself overwhelmed with feelings of joy and gratitude because of the fabulous five years Roddy and I have had together. People told me Scottish Terriers could not compete in Obedience and I have received several blue ribbons with this little guys and he has two obedience titles.
I am sharing this only because I firmly believe that adding only one hour of Eucharistic Adoration to my life six weeks ago is why I am feeling gratitude instead of self pity. If you can squeeze it into your life, I really recommend it. This little dog has given me nothing by unconditional love for five years - and he may respond beautifully to the treatment and be around for another year. Only God knows. But it is has brought me firmly into one day at a time, and into acknowledging the miracle that Our Lord has worked in my life.