I wrote a while back after my husband (of 18 years) had left me. He told me he wanted a separation, then two days later left for the weekend to go be with a woman he’d met online a few months earlier. I moved out of our apartment and into my parents house. He “dated” this woman for a couple of months, then moved to a new apartment and she moved in with him. He ended up moving her out (his choice) and recently began to contact me, asking me to try again with him.
I have asked for advice from some of my Catholic friends and they seem to think I should not forgive him and that I should continue on with the divorce. My husband is not Catholic, and when we were together I didn’t attend Mass much. I also suffer from panic attacks and agoraphobia, though this has been getting better since our separation. In fact I’ve begun to get much more involved at my Church as well.
When I ask my family, they (mostly) are leaning toward forgiveness.
I am very confused. I don’t know what to do, whether to forgive and try again or to continue on with the divorce. I’m not even sure I still love him?
I need some advice.