In my life most of my significant connections to events, how I remember things, and what I like comes through music. However, I’m very sensitive to musical in an odd way, music can make me feel anywhere from annoyed to fearful.
Also, in my faith, alot of my re-conversion and being brought close to the Church came through praise & worship starting with world youth day & then, much later, youth masses. (It was because of WYD that I was drawn towards Mass) What I learned that year with more “upbeat” music changed my life. The tempo, the words, especally the fact that it was live (hearing difficulities partly at fault)…and with serious ADD that I strugle so hard to control, it really pulls me in satisfing the nutty part of my brain, letting me sit in wonder and awe of the Eucharist. My biggest breakthroughs in my spirituality have come through praise oriented Masses becuase my brain stopped and my heart accepted the AWSOME gift that God gives every Mass.
Now, three years into college I’m struggling without prasie type masses.
Very traditional mass, with chanting, flips me out, and no matter how hard I try I cannot be comfortable with it. Any chanting freaks me out. The old 70’s hippie music is o.k. but for personal reasons I struggle with it.
Now I’ll often go to the Mass without music becuase I can’t stand the annoyance of not having the music that brings me closer to God.
I’ve been contemplating two things
break down and find a teen mass to go to
go to a protestant praise service
suck it up
I don’t want special consideration, but I do want to actually focus on God and my own spirituality and spiritual health.
Anyway, for whatever answer you pick, please give a reason.