For some reason, the Fatima apparitions have been on my mind for a while now. But there's something that's been bothering me about them.
*For the record, I totally believe in the apparitions and I love Our Lady of Fatima, the Rosary, the brown scapular, etc! *
My question is regarding what Mary said about Russia. (but let's not turn this thread into a debate about whether the consecration of Russia has occured, or what the last secret is, etc ;))
My cultural background is Russian and that's also where I was born (though I grew up in another country). My parents are both Russian. I was baptized Russian Orthodox as a child. As you can see now I'm Catholic.... and I believe it was Mary who drew me to the Church. She has always been involved in my life though I only recognize it now.
At Fatima, Mary asked for the conversion of Russia, and - if this is happening person by person, - then I'm one of the Russian people she lead to the Church. :) so praise God!
But there's also something that I've wondered about and I hope that someone knowledgable here can give me some advice??
I disagree with Communism and it makes me sad how churches were closed down and atheism was encouraged during the Soviet era.. I grew up agnostic and so did all my family and relatives and maybe this is partly due to that. Russia was very much a Christian country before the Revolution, and I'm glad to see that now it's becoming that once more (even though Orthodox, not Catholic)
My family is (now) Eastern Orthodox and don't agree with this part of Communism either... but they grew up in the Soviet time and that's how they were raised. They have some great memories growing up and it wasn't a horrible time for them. I understand that. In the past, I've said that I disagree with Communism and dont really like how Stalin, etc, ruled the country.. and that I don't agree with the revolution and support the "white army" and the royal family over the "red army". And my family told me that I don't know what I'm talking about, that my view of history is just what I've been taught in Canada, and they worried that I've been brainwashed and turned against Russia or something. In truth, I'm not against Russia at all, I love my country and heritage, but that doesn't mean I have to agree with every bit of its history.. I just happen to like Russia before the revolution more, that's all. (I'm talking about the religion and culture aspect..I don't know much about economy, etc) My family also interpreted what I said to mean that I LOVE capitalism, but actually I don't really agree with any particular political system and that's not something I'm particularly knowledgeable about... there are aspects of capitalism that I think are good, like having private property, but I don't label myself according to any such system... the only label that applies to me is perhaps 'conservative Catholic'
Sorry for all this rambling, but I'm getting to my question:rolleyes:
I love Our Lady of Fatima and the messages she gave, but whenever I think of her, or see the Fatima statues, or the "13th day" trailer (which I really want to watch btw) - I feel worried, as if I'm going against my family or heritage and being a "traitor" to them. I don't think that being against Communism makes me "anti Russian"... and it's not offensive to me to hear people talking about converting Russia, - considering that I myself am a convert! but I'm worried if my family would feel hurt if I brought home the "13th day" movie or a statue of Our Lady of Fatima or something.
:confused: any advice/thoughts? how should I, as a Russian, see Fatima? and would my family be confused/offended/hurt by the 13th day movie? (like where it says "errors of Russia") .....perhaps someone here has seen the movie and can give me more detail?
maybe one way I can love my country is by praying for it to come to God, and be consecrated to Mary's Immaculate Heart?