Yesterday I went to confession to my priest whom I’m trying to confess to on a regular basis. I confessed a couple of venial sins which my priest seemed to, well, yawn at. In fact, after confessing one “sin,” which I was reluctant to admit, he asked me, “When are you going to start being Catholic and enjoy life?”
He’s a very smart man and I trust what he says. If anyone is in persona Christi, it is this man.
My penance is to enjoy life (within the boundaries of doing God’s will and commandments) and thank God for my sexuality (because I confessed some things regarding lust and subsequent nocturnal emissions). I’m confused by this penance because I try everyday to be more saintly by praying often, doing charitable works, while also trying to make others happy, all the while admitting that I am sinful and being sorrowful for my sins. I confessed the sins that I did because it had been almost a month since my last confession and I felt I needed to get some of these things off my conscience – but now it seems I’ve created this impression that I don’t enjoy life. Maybe I don’t because it seems that I am a very penitential person who almost always begin a prayer with, “Lord, forgive me for my sins,” but never forgetting His love, mercy and grace. I laugh a lot, I enjoy the company of other people, but I also just want to make sure that I, for one, never forget God’s good graces so that I don’t fall into pride or worse thinking that having all sorts of fun is perfectly acceptable.
I’m confused by this penance. I thought that I did enjoy life? And is it wrong to confess *what you think *you did wrong even if it objectively isn’t?