I am currently in the process of applying to seminary for my home diocese. I recently started working for a start-up company in the state adjacent to my home diocese. While working here, I have come to realize the amount of work these people do in my job each day, and how important my help is. On top of this, before beginning my application to my home diocese, I began getting spiritual direction from a parish priest who has pushed me to pray about being open to this diocese I work and live in now. The diocese I am currently in has a number of seminarians more than my home diocese due to the population difference. I have come to love the parish that I attend, but there are many parishes that I do not agree with in this diocese. At the same time, I feel as though my home diocese needs more men.
I feel bad for applying for my diocese back home for this fall, because I would have to leave the people I am working with and I don’t know how they would fare with my timing of leaving… I don’t want to screw these guys, because they are great people. At the same time, I don’t want to make Our Lord wait. I want to give myself to Him and His Church, and the feeling grows stronger each day. Further, I feel guilty for pursuing this application when my spiritual director is requesting me to stay in this current diocese. I am not entirely sure what to do, as I do not want to hurt anyone in this process.