Need prayers for all the uncontrolled anxiety

I need prayers for my constant paranoia/scrupulosity/anxiety/OCD that has wrecked havoc on me the past few weeks. Incidents have occurred that are beyond my control and now I’m fearing the potential consequences of these incidents. I am always afraid and thinking of the most dire consequences, and it seems like I am intentionally searching for answers/reading stories on the internet…which only makes my paranoia worse.

My mother is worried about my behavior. I am acting in a completely abnormal mood sometimes, even though I know what this paranoia is doing to me. Some times I’m fine and other times I’m constantly paranoid. It’s starting to affect me at work in that I find it difficult to focus and I feel like work is prison. There are times when I want to break down and cry at work, but I can’t. My father has told me there is absolutely nothing for me to worry about, but I keep telling myself over and over again, “What if? What if? What if?” And when I think of a “what-if?” scenario, I try to find out answers to that scenario online, which continues the paranoia. I’ve even been getting physically sick from all this anxiety. My parents think I’m crazy and that I’ve lost it.

Even when I try to divert my attention to do something I like, the “what if?” thoughts are still on my mind. I think the stress from all the things I’ve suffered the last few weeks have finally caught up to me and now I’m losing my mind. I don’t know if this is part of some un-diagnosed mental disease I have or if it’s just the usual paranoia that will eventually “blow over.” I plan on going to see my regular physician at least to start; not sure I’m ready to see a head-doctor yet. The last thing I want is MORE medication to be put on (I’m on enough of them at my young age already) but I need to find out why I’m acting like this.

I’m just worried that my place of employment will find out if I’m getting psych treatment/counseling; they have access to my current health records (due to the nature of my job); honestly I’m not sure how all of that stuff works, but could they fire me if they see I’m getting psych/counseling treatment even if there is absolutely no changes to how I’m performing my work?

Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou among women
and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners now
and at the hour of our death.

Amen.

I just said a prayer for you. God bless you.

Friend, I’m sorry that you’re going through all this. I will be keeping you in my prayers whenever I pray for those who are afflicted by anxiety/depression/OCD/scrupulosity/paranoia/etc. As for your place of employment, I’m not an expert and I suppose it could vary in each case, but I doubt you’ll be fired from your position. Like you said, if counseling doesn’t affect your work performance, I don’t see why getting treatment would be an issue. Maybe someone else will provide better advice, though.

Just a few more words on the state you’re experiencing: do take heart and remember not to merely avoid what causes you to become afflicted, but to actively fill yourself/let yourself be filled by positive things, whether temporal or spiritual. Of course developing your relationship with God (and Mary, I would add) should be central, if it isn’t already, but keeping busy with simple and positive activities is essential. By the way, this is coming from someone who’s been dealing with obsessive thoughts, scrupulosity, anxiety, and crazy moods for a long time, so I know a bit about what works and what doesn’t.

Anyway, hope this helps. Peace be with you!

Saint Michael, the archangel, defend us in battle, be our defense against the wickedness and snares of the devil, may God rebuke him, we humbly pray. And do you, O’ Prince of the Heavenly host, by the power of God thrust into Hell Satan and all the other evil spirits who prowl about the world for the ruin of souls.

Amen.

Our Father who art in Heaven, hallowed be thy name.

Thy kingdom come, thy will be done on Earth as it is in Heaven.

Give us this day our daily bread.

And forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us.

And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil.

Amen.

Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee.

Blessed are you among women, and blessed is the fruit of your womb Jesus.

Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death.

Amen.

I know there’s a lot of stigma against seeing a psychologist/psychiatrist. I will tell you if it were any other area of our lives, most of us would not hesitate to see a specialist.

For example, I have needed surgery, I wanted to see experts, specialists.

I’d encourage you to see a specialist, a psychologist to get this correctly diagnosed, and only if the psychologist thinks it necessary, will you get a referral to a psychiatrist.

Now, I realize there is a tremendous stigma about even going to either of these, because we think that in going, we are admitting we are “crazy”. I’ve actually been to both a psychologist and a psychiatrist for depression and would not even hesitate to go. First of all, you don’t even need to tell another living soul you’re going, and it is kept confidential unless you tell people.

Secondly, what’s the matter with seeking help? I know an awful lot of people who have needed a little help. Often, they may have a condition which is actually genetic, hereditary, runs in their family, and they just had the misfortune of having it.

It’s just like anything else, though. If you broke your leg, would you hesitate to seek help? No. This is no different.

I interpreted in mental health for years, and it surprised me since it turned out to be my favorite place of all to interpret! Well, it was mainly with kids and young people, and I worked with the parents. They were some of the nicest people I’ve ever known.

Some asked me if it was depressing, to listen to people’s problems like that. No. It wasn’t at all, because I’d see people walk in the door, a mess, go out, much better!

Also, there are a lot of misperceptions about even medication. For example, some people hear how addictive the medications can be, and yes, some are. However, even within the last 20 years, there have been very significant improvements to the point some which have been addictive have been replaced with others which aren’t addictive.

In my family, we have a history of depression. I’ve worked with others who have family histories of OCD, etc. Some were VERY nice people, and I was so glad they came in for some help.

My ex-husband had really bad OCD, refused to get medication, and that was one of the main reasons we divorced, actually. It was really hard trying to live with him.

I did see I had a problem with depression, swallowed my pride, ran out and got some help, both counseling and medication. Incidentally, it honestly wasn’t bad. In fact, I came to really like my counselor! She was such a wonderful, knowledgeable, and kind person…wise. I don’t know if you’d have my luck at finding a counselor you clicked with like that right away, but I just want you to know, there’s help.

A counselor would tell you how to handle the OCD. A lot of people place emphasis on trying to resist the obsessions. Sometimes, this just makes them stronger. Some might ,depending, say to more or less just ignore them, not pay them much heed.

If you would seek help, you might even be able to begin to enjoy your life! Some people with OCD have such a hard time if not treated that they can be tempted to get into alcohol, self medicate. So, it’d actually be preferable to admit there’s a problem, see what’s available.

Why not just go one time to the psychologist and give it a really good try? If you are still not convinced they can help, you are under no obligation to continue. What do you really have to lose?

Also, one more thing…even if one gets medication, many psychiatrists will start a person on a lowest dosage, work their way up, only giving what’s really necessary.

We need what we need. I’ve sometimes needed medication, and I have tried not to allow my pride to get in the way of getting the treatment(s) I’ve needed. There’s no shame in this.

My ex-husband didn’t want to see a psychologist/psychiatrist, either. He went to a regular MD who did put him on an antidepressant for his depression and panic attacks.

HOWEVER, this did NOTHING for his OCD! He became a happy OCD!

In retrospect, I wish he would have seen a specialist in the first place, gotten this diagnosed, properly, from the beginning.

This was an article on depression, but I think it shows how people resist needed treatments in the workplace due to the stigma.

depression.about.com/b/2010/02/01/workers-afraid-to-depression-seek-help-due-to-workplace-stigma.htm

Eternal, Holy God,
Tous Logous comes to You burdened with worries,
fears, doubts and troubles.
Calm and quiet Tous Logous with peace of mind.
Empty him/her of the anxiety that disturbs him/her,
of the concerns that weary the spirit,
and weight heavy on his/her heart.

Loosen Tous Logous’ grip on the disappointments
and grievances he/she holds on to so tightly.
Release him/her from the pain of past hurts,
of present anger and tension,
of future fears.

Sometimes it’s too much for us Lord,
too many demands and problems,
too much sadness, suffering, and stress.

Renew Tous Logous’ spiritually and emotionally.
Give him/her new strength, hope, and confidence.
Prepare him/her to meet the constant struggles
of daily life with a deeper faith and trust in You.

Let your love set Tous Logous free, for peace,
for joy, for grace, for life,
for others, forever. Amen.

I agree 100% with Clear Water. I can’t think of any area of employment where they would have access to your records. They are confidential. And, any psychotherapy notes are confidential.

I would definitely see a therapist and psychiatrist for meds. There is no shame in that at all. It is a shame there is a stigma to mental illness! Praying for you.

Good Saint Dymphna, great wonder-worker in every affliction of mind and body, I humbly implore your powerful intercession with Jesus through Mary, the Health of the Sick, in my present need. (for tous_logus to seek treatment needed)) Saint Dymphna, martyr of purity, patroness of those who suffer with nervous and mental afflictions, beloved child of Jesus and Mary, pray to Them for me and obtain my request.
(Pray one Our Father, one Hail Mary and one Glory Be.)

Saint Dymphna, Virgin and Martyr, pray for us.

Praying for you.

Eternal God , in whom mercy is endless,
and the treasury of compassion inexhaustible ,
look kindly upon us and increase Your mercy in us ,
that in difficult moments we might not despair
nor become despondent , but with great confidence ,
submit ourselves to Your Holy Will ,
which is love and mercy itself . Amen

I pray that you seek and receive help. There are meds that can put much of what you feel in arrest without making you feel like you are “not yourself.” These meds have made leading a normal life possible. They were made possible by a very important need.

Relief is possible, give it a try.

Praying

For your peace and healing.

Our Father who art in heaven;
hallowed be thy name.
Thy kingdom come.
Thy will be done on earth, as it is in heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread.
And forgive us our trespasses
as we forgive those who trespass against us.
And lead us not into temptation:
but deliver us from evil.

Eternal God , in whom mercy is endless,
and the treasury of compassion inexhastible ,
look kindly upon us and increase Your mercy in us ,
that in difficult moments we might not despair
nor become despondent , but with great confidence ,
submit ourselves to Your Holy Will ,
which is love and mercy itself . Amen

Memorare (Prayer to Our Lady)
Remember, O most gracious Virgin Mary, that never was it known that anyone who fled to your protection, implored your help, or sought your intercession, was left unaided.
Inspired by this confidence, I fly unto you, O Virgin of virgins, my Mother. To you do I come, before you I stand, sinful and sorrowful. O Mother of the Word Incarnate, despise not my petitions, but in your mercy, hear and answer me. Amen

*Our Father

Pater noster, qui es in cælis, sanctificetur nomen tuum; adveniat regnum tuum; fiat voluntas tua, sicut in caelo et in terra. Panem nostrum cotidianum da nobis hodie, et dimitte nobis debita nostra, sicut et nos dimittimus debitoribus nostris; et ne nos inducas in tentationem Sed libera nos a malo. Amen

Hail Mary

Ave Maria, gratia plena, Dominus tecum. Benedicta tu in mulieribus, et benedictus fructus ventris tui, Jesus. Sancta Maria, Mater Dei, ora pro nobis peccatoribus, nunc et in hora mortis nostrae. Amen.

We fly to your patronage, O holy Mother of God; despise not our petitions in our necessities, but deliver us always from all dangers, O glorious and blessed Virgin.

PRAYER TO THE HOLY FACE OF JESUS

Be merciful to us, O my God, and reject not our prayers, when amid our afflictions we call on Thy Holy Name and seek with love and confidence Thine adorable Face. Amen.

Praying for your peace and calm.

I would think your employer would only have access if you agreed at the time of hiring and only then because of the nature of your job; i.e., someone with anxiety may not be the best candidate for being a police officer. In other words, safety measures.
If your job would be no way affected otherwise, I can’t imagine the access.

Praying much for you!

Eternal God , in whom mercy is endless,
and the treasury of compassion inexhastible ,
look kindly upon us and increase Your mercy in us ,
that in difficult moments we might not despair
nor become despondent , but with great confidence ,
submit ourselves to Your Holy Will ,
which is love and mercy itself . Amen

Memorare (Prayer to Our Lady)
Remember, O most gracious Virgin Mary, that never was it known that anyone who fled to your protection, implored your help, or sought your intercession, was left unaided.
Inspired by this confidence, I fly unto you, O Virgin of virgins, my Mother. To you do I come, before you I stand, sinful and sorrowful. O Mother of the Word Incarnate, despise not my petitions, but in your mercy, hear and answer me. Amen

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