I kind of had bad luck lately. Over this last year-and-a-half or two years, it seems I’ve lost all my closest friends. It started with my best friend. And now I’ve noticed that one friend is no longer my friend on FB, and neither she nor the last of my closer gal friends has been making an effort to hang out with me (yes, I’ve been taking the initiative to try to arrange hangout dates…and these attempts failed). These were my friends for over seven years. Some of them were Christian, but none of them were practicing Catholics, which I’ve been regretting lately. I’m tired of the hostile atmospheres and wondering who’s gossiping behind my back. I never thought that this could happen until suddenly one bad factor entered the mix and destroyed everything. The only person outside of my family who I still trust is my boyfriend, and I worry about becoming too dependent on him. I really want some friends I can trust again. I can’t say I’ve been a perfect or good friend to everyone, either, though, and I would like some prayers to improve the way I treat others, too.
I have been getting involved in a Catholic campus ministry since the breakdown with my best friend started, but the people there aren’t close friends, yet. I know it’ll take a long time before I can get the same closeness with them that I had with my old friends. It’s really strange sometimes being around these passionate Catholics, because I’m not used to the lack of foul words and conflict, and I’m not used to having peers around me who share my faith. I like the feeling a lot, though, and I hope to finally form that group of Catholic buddies who are important for companionship and for encouraging me in my faith.
Please pray for me to heal from these ongoing emotional wounds, for me to become a better friend to others, for me to find new faithful friends, and for me to become more consciously reliant on God (since I believe that’s what He intended when He allowed these things to happen to me).