I need prayers because as of now, I am very confused in my faith journey.
I am growing quite disillusioned with how the OF Mass is being done at my parish. There is rampant liturgical abuse and I feel like all the reverence of the Mass has disappeared. If it weren’t for the Eucharist, I would feel like I would be attending a Protestant church. Note that I have no problem with the OF Mass itself but rather the abuses that are occurring. I am not sure why the priests allow this; perhaps they are ignorant and do not know better? I know I do not go to Mass to be entertained but it feels like a Mass that is trying to entertain the parishioners.
I still believe in everything the Church teaches and believes, but I don’t know if I should confront the priests in a nice way or just move onto another parish. This parish is essentially the one I’ve been going to for most of my life, and the Stations of the Cross/beautiful stained glass windows are rarely seen anymore in a modern-looking church (we even have the ringing bells; I am not sure if all other Catholic parishes still ring the large bells before Mass starts?). I guess I am just extremely frustrated with all the liturgical abuses that are very common throughout the U.S. and I’m not sure if moving to another parish would fix the problem.
Another thing I found out is that my mother believes in the use of artificial contraception. She gives all the standard answers that artificial contraception users give and it’s frustrating because she will not listen to me. She claims to believe everything the Church does but I do not see that to be the case. She will not listen to me and she takes Communion whenever we go.
It’s bad enough I live with a non-practicing sister and an angry atheistic father who REALLY hates God. I was hoping my mother was an orthodox Catholic with regards to the “majors” (abortion,contraception, etc.). I know all of us are sinners and yes, I consider myself a horrible sinner, but even I believe in what the Church teaches.
I am not sure if I have a right to be disappointed, if I’m over-reacting to all of this, or if Satan is trying to influence my thinking.