my story in a nutshell: born and raised protestant (Nazarene), surrounded by protestant friends and family, and an anti-Catholic wife, BUT i’ve been studying the faith for the past 6 years…and i think it is TRUE!
i was in RCIA until my wife said she would leave me (or at least make my life hell!) 2 years ago, but i can’t hardly bear to go to my protestant church anymore, because i - charitably - debate everybody there…including the pastoral staff! please pray that i will have the courage to tell my wife that i gotta do what i believe God wants me to do.
i have been “Catholic” all my life (48 years). I put the word “Catholic” in quotes because i have not always been, objectively speaking, a good, practicing Catholic. One reason was that i was never taught waht the Church really teaches, which was not my fault. My spiritual journey has run the gamut - i was a Sunday Catholic while growing up. Then i had what the Protestants call a born-again experience at the age of 15. I fell in love with Jesus and read the New Testament all the way through a couple of times. But at around the age of 17, some “weird” things happened, some of which i have yet to fully comprehend, and i began to (reluctantly) fall away from my close relationship with Jesus. To make a long, long story short - i almost lost my soul. My mother and i had problems in my teen years so i stayed away from “home”, got involved wtih some very wrong people, almost lost my life as well (big long story). I stayed away from God because i figured He was angry with me and that i wasn’t good enough for Him. Something bad then happened that convinced me even more that this was true. I began to feel life wasn’t wroth living (and without a close relationship with the Lord, it isn’t). When my life hit rock bottom, i started praying the rosary, even though i didn’t believe in it one bit and also, strangely, i did not feel one bit like praying it. I don’t usually do things i totally don’t feel like doing… I guess the Holy Spirit intervened (more or less against my will - or at least my feelings…). Anyway, my circumstances got worse after that, but i, myself, began to get better, spiritually and mentally. Satan attacked me like you wouldn’t believe (another long story). But something told me to keep praying and i did. The devil continued to attack me, etc… Years ago, i went to a “non-denominational” 12-step meeting where most of the members were ex-Catholics. One of them had been divorced and re-married a couple times and always made snide remarks about the Catholic religion, one time going so far as to imply it is a cult. I got really irritated because i knew that it was a Catholic “thing” (the rosary) that had saved me from literal hell on earth. She made me angry enough that i was inspired to study my Faith. But something (?) told me that in choosing to study it, i would uncover some unpleasant stuff along the way - if i delved too deeply. And you know what - i DID! But to explain waht i mean by that is one of my longest stories of all. In any case, what i learned blew me away and in spite of the “unpleasant” stuff i encountered in my Catholic journey, i am glad i studied it (i almost got cold feet and didn’t). I would like to talk to you about the “unpleasant” stuff because maybe you will (or have) encounter(ed) it???.. but this message is already pretty long so i’ll let you go. I will keep your wife in my prayers. I would like to know her side of things, even though i think she should allow you to follow your conscience.
God bless you for following truth