I am not even sure where to start with this…
I am a Catholic - born and raised. I was very “into my faith” while I was in high school. I loved going to mass, experiencing God as often as I could, etc.
About 6-7 years ago, I feel away from my faith. I just didn’t really care anymore. All the time I was in college and for the last year, I have not gone to mass - unless I was home with my parents or at a wedding, etc.
A few weeks ago - I felt my heart turn back to God. I wanted to have that personal relationship with God back in my life.
I have been questioning whether or not to remain a Catholic - I was feeling very unsure about it and have actually been visiting a protestant church. After praying about it - I think I have concluded that I need to go back to the Catholic Church - it is where I belong.
I still have lots of lingering doubts in my mind. One of which is about the worship service that I have been attending. I love the contemporary style of music and the message - I feel fulfilled when I attend. Although I know I need to get back to Mass - I know I will miss this other church. Would there be anything sinful about attending both? (And yes, I mean both in one weekend - if I couldn’t do both for whatever reason - I would go to mass and not the other service).
I desperately need to go to confession, I feel unfit to attend mass at this point - but I am terrified of going. I have so many sins on my soul.
I feel lost and confused. I am broken from my past. I am desperately seeking God - praying every day and reading the bible when I can. I just need help!