I have written on this twice and spoken to my AA sponsor about it once. It is a petty disturbance in the grand scheme of things but I am going to vent anyway.
My father’s (small) estate is finally being distributed today and tomorrow. I am very grateful for what I am receiving and am even more grateful that the last four years of Dad’s life were spent with the two of us in harmony. We had a good relationship at last, due in no small measure to what I have been taught as a sober member of AA and as an obedient daughter of the Holy Mother Church.
My father’s oldest child, my half-sister, is receiving 1/3 of the estate. When we (my brother and I) called her three years ago to tell her Dad had died (I was the one who found his body) her response was, “Really? I thought he had all ready died.”.
The past three years have been dealing with her little fits and temper tantrums. You would think this was a HUGE estate…it isn’t; I will be able to pay all but about 20k of my mortgage and that’s it. It will be gone…and I am very grateful for that, believe ME!!!
Because she has been so darn snippy about the entire affair, I have no reason to want her to be a big part of my life. I forgive her -on the surface, I guess - but deep down inside I would love to find the line in the Catechism or the Big Book of AA that gives me permission to pop her one right in the nose.
How’s THAT for Catholic Charity:tsktsk: .
So, I have gone on my knees to the Lord with this and I know I will heal … the hurt and the jealousy I feel (as much as I hate to admit it, that is what it is) over her suddenly reappearing in our lives ‘just in time’ to grab her share of a small estate will pass. Thank GOD for the Sacrament of Confession…and for a God that allows me to come to Him with the good and the bad…
And thank you for letting me share…