Some background first…my husband and I are newly converted and I am loving being Catholic. I attend Mass 2-3 times per week and go to Reconcilliation every week or every other week. I love my Parish and am very active! Well we have grown up here in Indiana all of our lives. All of our family is here,jobs…etc So we have many of good memories but unforunately a lot of bad. I have done a lot of bad things that I am deeply sorry for. What we are finding is we are running into some of the people that are part of my dark past and even locations and buildings keep bringing back these horrible memories.This is causing a lot of issues. I truly want to work on our marriage and I want us to be together, no matter what we have to do.
We are considering moving out of the state. For a long time we have spoken about moving to either Texas or Arizona. I have friends there and have even looked at a few of the Parishes. But that is a huge move, especially when you have small children! Honestly, I am scared to death and I don’t know what to do.
If we stay:
We will have our families
I will get to stay in the Parish that I love
My job I like but I don’t LOVE and same goes with my husband
Our daughters do have friends here but they are still little and not yet in real school.
We will continually be reminded of all the bad I did and the hurt I put him through and this has shown hard to move on.
If we move:
I will have a friend to show me arouond
I would have to find a new Parish that I love
We would have to find new jobs, schools…etc
Family would be far away
We wouldn’t have the constant reminders of what I did.
Sometimes we will be doing great and we go somewhere and my husband sees something and it’s all downhill after that.
I truly don’t know what to do and I need help. God will guide me to where I should be and what I should be doing but I need prayers that we can make a good decision. One that is good for our family and the one that the Lord wants for us. Please pray that we can decide where our home should be and where we raise our family and hopefully where we can continue to develop in our marriage. Thank you.
eta- I don’t want to be selfish against my daughters.