Don’t get me wrong, I have plenty of friends and family that I love dearly and share plenty of happiness with. But I have never found the toils of a secular life particularly rewarding, even when I’ve done pretty good for myself. The only thing that has ever made me unconditionally happy is helping people. Sadly, this doesn’t quite pay well enough to cover food and housing etc. So I’m now in a position, due to a failed business venture, in a position where at 34 I’m most likely going to be starting from nothing again. After the initial shock of losing all of the material things I thought I held dear wore off, I began to feel liberated. For the first time in decades I feel as if I am unusually happy to be free from material distraction. I find it liberating and without the pressure to keep up with secular commitments, I’m starting to think that perhaps it’s time to pursue a long term dream of helping people full time. I don’t think clergy is right for me but the prospect of full time or long term missionary work is becoming highly appealing.
For anyone experienced with this, I’d love to get your insight and advice, perhaps point me to a good organization I can work with. I’m mostly looking for long term, preferably foreign missionary work in some way.