So long story short I was born, baptized Catholic but parents didn’t take me to church or educate me in the faith so I grew up atheist and became very existentially depressed as I could not see a point to dealing with life’s hardships if I was just going to die regardless.
To cut another long story short, I discovered the spiritual path and ended up in the New Age movement for a while. Eventually, I realized the new age movement was extremely confusing. THere was too much information, too much conflicting information and too many cooky characters. I did not know whom I could trust and I just felt like I could not find God there so I decided to get out of this crazy movement and go back and study ancient Christianity.
That eventually lead me to becoming Catholic, which was one of the best things, if not THE best thing that ever happened to me because I was eventually able to meet the King of kings, Jesus Christ, in the Holy Eucharist. The Catholic Church helped to change my life as I went from hopelessly depressed and angry at life, to being in awe of the wondrousness of God and his creation. This is many years since I left the new age movement behind and I seldom even think about it these days. However, all of a sudden, last night I had a sudden urge to use the Violet Flame of Freedom, which is a new age technique that is supposed to concentrate the power of prayer and use it to transmute negative energy and heal the blockages that block your relationship with God. When I used the violet flame, I felt its immense power (something I had never noticed back when I was actually in the new age movement). I then felt the presence of God with me and he was unconditionally loving me, despite my strong view in myself that I am a sinner and not worthy of God’s love. Not only was he loving me, but he was also healing with me this violet light that I had invoked, the Violet Flame of Freedom. Anyway, after that I did a meditation to open my chakras and it felt amazing.
I now feel more aware of my connection to God than I ever have before. It is as though I am directly aware that we live and hear and see and speak and think and experience all entirely within the timelessness of God, who is the source and substance of all that is. And not only that, but God is actually a loving God. A caring God who wants us to come running to him and jump into his arms like a child runs into the outstretched arms of its parent.
Anyway, my questions is, did I commit a sin by using these new age techniques? I left the new age movement and all new age techniques behind years ago in order to practice traditional Catholic Christianity. I dabbled in Buddhism and as well as neo advaita teachings from to time but absolutely nothing new age. For the most part my worship was very traditionally Catholic and I developed a great love and appreciation for Catholic spirituality. So I don’t know why I have all of a sudden this urge to use the Violet Flame of Freedom and I am wondering whether I can use it as a Catholic or if it is considered a sin?
I read that some Catholic saints used the Violet Flame Energy and that that is why Violet is the color which represents penance with in the Catholic Church? Anyway, I would just like opinions on this because I don’t want to do anything that offends God and yet I feel as though there is great benefit available to me through this so called Violet Light.