I just recently received an email back from the vocation director of the Sister Servants. Sister said that my health issues constitute an impediment to their Order (so I won’t be able to ever enter their Order). I know that they make exceptions if it’s well-controlled, but Sister said nothing of this to me. I had been discerning their Order since late 2010. I’m now feeling down, hurt and disappointed about it, but it helps me to try to remember that God speaks through Superiors in Orders, and that God just doesn’t want me at that Order. Maybe their more-cloistered type life wouldn’t have been good for me; God sure has His reasons.
There are some Orders open to health issues and I’ll be looking into them more in the future, but right now I’m just feeling pretty down, and I’m in no rush anyway, so I think I’ll be taking discernment slowly. I also just started a college 3 credit composition course, mostly online, with a local community college, and that will have me pretty busy writing papers from now into mid-December. It’s my first college course, and I’m really hoping I do well; all the essays sure look daunting though!
I had written the RSM Institute and told them my mental health issue some months ago, and they said that they are open to considering me and whether I have a vocation to their Institute, so that gives me hope, so I may be looking into them when I’m feeling better. Some of them work in the medical field so they are more open to entrants with health problems. It gives me some peace to think about that because I don’t feel they would ask me to leave if I had a relapse; I believe they would help me if something ever happened and they would get me stable again. I believe they would better understand me and my needs, and help me have a great life with them. They are not so equipped with the Sister Servants, and that left me feeling uneasy. I don’t believe I will have a relapse though because I have been totally controlled on medicine for years now without symptoms or relapse.
Thank y’all for the SsEW thread and I hope it helps others discerning this beautiful Order.