[quote="agriffinpe, post:1, topic:225927"]
First, let me apologize if this is not the correct forum for this post.
My husband and I were married in July of last year. After attending an Engaged Encounter Weekend, we committed to a marriage without artificial contraception. We began using the Creighton model. I am currently in RCIA and was frustrated and felt alone with the lack of support I could find for using NFP and the challenges it presented us as newlyweds. Three months later, we found out we were pregnant. It was unexpected, but we immediately feel in love with the tiny life God had entrusted us with. We began making plans for me to leave my job and for the arrival of the baby.
Last week, after 13 weeks, the baby's heart stopped beating. The entire process has been devastating. My entire life, and body, has been changed by this baby, and there is no going back. I am losing faith in God. I can't understand why the choice to trust Him has resulted in so much pain. I can no longer imagine a life without our baby.
Is there hope?
My condolences on your loss....I am so sorry. My wife and I are permanently infertile, and we began much as you have (we got pregnant several times, but in each case, the child did not live long enough to be born). We have lost several children, at different stages, and yes, I know what you mean, it is devastating. I don't know if it has caused my wife and I to lose faith in God, but it has certainly made us less trusting, less willing, less grateful, less loving. I am told there is always hope, and I honestly don't understand why your trust (and mine) has led to so much pain. But there are some people on here that appear to have made progress in this...well, more progress than my wife and I ever had in dealing with this. Their stories are quite uplifting in places (and despairing in others). You may already have seen this, but if you haven't, here it is:
I and my wife will pray for you.