Whats wrong with me?
My now husband and I are were married in a catholic church (very traditional), learned NFP, did the required marriage classes, I lived with my parents before wedding night, but something is horribly wrong with our picture. We are not blissfully happy. Literally, when the honeymoon ended something in us broke. We are practicing Roman Catholics and have been so our whole lives. We love each other but now that we have consumated we are no longer happy, or as nice to one another. I do not desire intimacy, whereas before marriage I longed for it.
Now there is an aspect of our marriage which already has me stressed out beyond belief. That is, I would be doing most, if not all of the providing while he begins medical school. I dont think I ever dreamt it could be this difficult. The most difficult part is that I feel like I fooled myself that I was strong enough to do this. Now I find myself thinking, I cant get pregnant, I CANT GET PREGNANT! In doing this have myself convinced that I do not want to be intimate at all with my husband and am probably in the vast minority of women not on some form of birth control.
Maybe we just need a whole lot of prayers. Maybe you all have some advice on how to fix, or make this work. I feel like something terrible has happened to us.
I am praying a rosary every night.