So I went to confession yesterday. Im the kind of person that needs to write everything down on a piece of paper so I wont forget what to say during confession because I tend to get nervous very easily when it comes to telling the priest about my sins and forgetful because of it. I dont plan on being nervous, im actually very calm and collected prior too but just as soon as I walk into the confessional booth all that calmness flees from me and i start getting sweaty palms. I feel like every time I confess my sins my heart and soul are not in it and all that im focused on is getting the written words out verbally no matter how bland it may sound. I truly care about being forgiven my god for my sins otherwise I wouldnt be there and I try my best but it always turns out this way so I dont feel like I am absolved of anything.
Does god judge weather or not you are forgiven based on how you conduct yourself in confession?