Hello all. I am also in this year’s RCIA cohort. Leading up to the shore… I suppose I have always thought of myself as a Lutheran. My family was Lutheran when I was a child, although we later went to many different denominations after our beloved church split. Later I stopped attending church due to working on Sundays, and then a tragedy happened that shook my faith.
God called me back to attendance at a non-denominational church a couple years ago and I really started to examine my faith. I also had to figure out why I suddenly had a longing for communion after so many years. This eventually led me to study Real Presence. I had thought I would end up at a LCMS Lutheran church similar to the pre-ELCA congregation of my youth, but the Holy Spirit sent me instead to a lovely local Catholic parish, much to my surprise. After a lot of self-study, I inquired about RCIA, which seemed impossible at the time due to my work schedule, but it all fell into place. It’s been a wonderful experience.
But, I should also mention, my interior processing has not been quite so linear or neat. I have gone through periods of severe doubt about becoming Catholic. I have wrestled with all the typical Protestant reservations, but thankfully digging deeply into these things (and journaling my findings) has helped a lot. Sometimes I feel like the “kicking and screaming” convert, but this battle has also brought me some of the clarity and confidence I have been seeking.
Discovering the rosary has also been an amazing experience. I didn’t think I would have any sort of Marian devotion, but the rosary has been powerful and life changing in an indescribable way. Now Peter’s words resonate with me, “Lord, to whom shall we go?” No Protestant denomination understands these things, and to shun them or use the pre-Trent rosary feels like shutting the door on the full truth.
Sorry to go on and on. I just wanted to drop in and say hi to others on the shore. I’m hoping my journey will include Confirmation this spring. If not, I think it will still just be a matter of time. And things will probably still be messy for me. My family doesn’t know yet and they probably won’t understand. But that will work itself out in time as well. Life is messy.