[quote="Dancelittleewok, post:6, topic:175760"]
Thank you for your kind responses and prayers.
My boyfriend and I went to LifeTeen (cringe) Mass last night. For the first time, I feel a true inner peace but since it was a LifeTeen Mass, I got distracted by the errors, probably spurned on my tendency towards scrupulosity.
I know what you mean about LifeTeen, but it's still a Mass so Jesus is definitely there! :) that's great that you feel peace. I felt that too when I began going to Mass. It sounds like God gave you this grace through the Mass =)
I've been trying to pray but all my words feel hollow....
it's usually like that at first.. one thing I've learned is that it takes time to develop a relationship with God. When I first started praying, my words felt hollow too. Eventually they didn't, but I still felt some doubts and "held back" a little. It took a while to learn to trust God. Try to pray with faith. Remember God hears you, regardless of how it feels.
Reflect on who God is, on Christ's Passion, on what it means... reflect on His love for you, and maybe then He'll be more 'real'. One day during prayer I really felt God telling me that He understands everything about me, that His love is really unconditional. Ever since then, my relationship with Him has been more personal though of course I still have far to go. The more you pray, the better it gets.
Here's something that I've always liked: mcpriests.com/03_I_thirst_PrayerEN.htm
there are a whole bunch of prayers here: 2heartsnetwork.org/prayers.htm
Does anyone have any good resources about devotionals?
what type are you looking for? by devotionals, do you mean devotions (like Divine Mercy, Sacred Heart, etc), or a series of reflections on certain topics?
[quote="Lief_Erikson, post:7, topic:175760"]
God is already more than an intellectual idea to you, Dancelittleewok :). You felt His peace in your heart at the LifeTeen Mass, and you have heard His voice in your heart calling you to a deeper relationship with Him. You've heard Him just as the disciples heard Him when He told them, "Come, follow me." You've heard and you are following! You are doing God's will. Keep following Him as you're doing now, you and your boyfriend, and you will find all that you could desire in Christ.
One thing that may also help you is to consider, during Mass, that all the Scripture readings are words from God for you. They are what He wants you to be hearing right now. The hymns and prayers are also about you, your soul, and what God wants for you. Try personalizing it all, and pray to be able to do this more.
When I go to Mass, it's a deeply personal personal experience because I pray as much of what is going on as I can. I pray the hymns and liturgy and take the words of the priest and Scripture as the words of God for me to apply in my life right now. It's a very personal experience of God for me. Pope John Paul II wrote that the Mass is a prayer. We would do well to pray it!
People here have talked about prayer. That is definitely a central way of coming closer to God. The Rosary is the most powerful prayer, and it's especially effective, I think, when we take a while praying it, dwelling on and thinking about the words. The first several times I prayed it, I added my own words into or at the end of many of the Hail Mary's, making them all more personal. That helped me.
I also prayed most of the Hail Mary's for specific intentions. That too increased my ability to focus. An intention you might want to pray for is getting out of the over-intellectualization of God and into a more deeply personal relationship with Him.
I still do these things sometimes, though not very often anymore. I tend not to need it much now. But they're a good way of getting more involved in the Rosary, I think. They make it all take longer, but putting so much of one's own words and thoughts into it can draw one inside more deeply.
cool :) :thumbsup:
[quote="Dancelittleewok, post:9, topic:175760"]
Thank you for your prayers and advice, guys. Your advice has edified me and helped me feel closer to God. hugs Tonight, my boyfriend and I are going to Confession, followed by the Saturday Mass. I'm quite excited to receive Jesus, His Body and Blood, for the first time in years! :)
awesome!! that is really wonderful and I hope you'll both be blessed at Confession and the Mass. I just went to Confession this morning and it's such a gift.
The most personal way God relates to us is through the Eucharist. In this Sacrament, He gives Himself to us. What's really helped me is thinking of His presence in me after Communion, and praying to Him as He's in my heart.. offering thanksgiving.. and asking for any grace that I need. Communion is the most holy, most grace filled occasion of our lives, it's also one where Jesus shows us His love in the most powerful way.
Prayers for you..