So, I was late again. I was 5-10 minutes late to Mass on Easter Sunday…
My life-long struggle with sin is the struggle with timelines. I have lost jobs. Early school memories involve detention and discipline.
Priests in confession chastised me for being rude and selfish by being chronically late to Mass.
One priest actually said you need to see a Dr. However, Dr.’s want to drug me, and by reading all these posts, I know I shouldn’t do drugs. And when I say drugs, I mean CONTROLLED SUBSTANCES that Dr.’s want to prescribe. I will not follow the path into further sins. I don’t want to be led into further sins.
My timeliness issues have led into multiple other sins, such as dishonesty.
About one year ago, I made a firm resolve to STOP this sin. I tried so hard to pick up the pace when getting ready to avoid being late. This has resulted in various injuries and emergency visits. So, to be safe, I slowed down my pace and am chronically late again.
At this time, I feel hopeless, doomed, and incorrigible, and almost in tears at Easter Sunday Mass for being late on the most important event of the year!!!
If you have helpful advice, it would be appreciated, but I feel so trapped in this sin that I cannot change!!!