I'm discerning a religious vocation, and I have visited 3 orders. I feel mostly drawn to 1 of them, but I'm really good friends with one of the other orders, and I have visited them many times, like 4 or 5 times on a come and see weekend and retreats. I don't feel called to that order, but should I still visit them ? They have a retreat coming up, and I don't know if I should go.
Also, the vocation director said that they would be happy to have me join their order. I know that they want what is best for me, and for me to be in the order that God wants me to be, but I can't escape the feeling that, since I've been visiting them so much that I would feel bad if I joined another order, even though I'd be overwhelmed with happiness when I join the order that I feel called to.