Today I am having feelings of overwhelming proportions. I found out from the attorney that we have no recourse to have extended time to move or sell our mobile home - except to request an extension from the very people who stand to profit if we forfeit on our inheritance. My Dad, whom I have requested prayers for, has reached a plateau on his recovery. Physically he is better, but mentally he has almost shut down. About two weeks ago we thought he was going to begin the recovery process - now he just lies in his hospital bed listlessly staring at the ceiling - will barely attempt to work with the physical therapists to regain his strength. Also, we may be getting evicted from my mother-in-law’s house we moved into when attempting to sell our mobile home - which as I previously mentioned we will probably end up forfeiting.
My problem is my spiritual well is dry. My faith has all but deserted me. My prayers are forced and non-emotional. I can not see a point in attempting to fight anymore. My marriage is suffering greatly from my apathy and disassociation. I don’t know what lesson God is trying to teach me, but I don’t know if I want to know the answer! My reserves are almost gone, I don’t know if I can make it through the desert this time or not. The stress of it all is damaging my physical and spiritual health - I feel completely empty and alone.
Sorry, for sounding so miserable. I just don’t know what to do - so I thought maybe getting this “out there and off my chest” would help. No need to respond.