I am 21 years old, practicing Catholic. I am currently in a long distance relationship with a Catholic boy that my parents do not approve of. They have several reasons as to why they do not support the relationship. I really love the boy and the boy feels the same about me. My parents see several negative qualties in the boy, that I agree with, but I am very much in love with him that I am blinded by passion, that makes me accept his negative qualities. Nevertheless, I actually see a future with him, and I believe that I can change his negatives to the better in the many years to come.
One of the many reasons my parents do not approve of him, is because he lives in an underdeveloped country, and wants me to move and live there with him once we are married. My parents do not accept me to leave North America to live in a less developed country for the rest of my life. But I am willing to marry him and move there with him, but my parents strongly oppose it.
I love the boy that I am willing to do what it takes. But this will be against my parent's will which hurts me so much.
Also, my parents see that the boy does not have the same level of spirituality as myself. My dad feels my souls is the priority in this issue. He sees how much I love the boy, but he says its not worth 'gambling with your soul'.
My parents pressured me to end the realtionship twice before, and I obeyed them, but a few days later, I fell into a state of depression, and at that same time the boy sent me a message saying that he was depressed too. That got us back together after the break-up. Right now, I am in touch with him without my parent's consent, and I am trying to discuss the issue again with my parents, to convince them or get them to change their mind. But I feel that my parents will never change their mind about it.
I want to respect their will, and obey them to end this relationship but something inside me tells me not to let go of him. I just do not wish to take any decision that might get me to regret some day in the future.
I have prayed a lot for this intention. I have asked people to pray for me. My sister is a nun, and I have desperstely requested her to pray for me. I know that God will guide me, but at the same time, I feel that even if God tries to guide me, I am afraid I may be blinded by my passions. My passions are so strong right now that I feel any help from God may not be seen or heard by me.
Having prayed 3 novenas, chaplets and prayers for this intention I am confident that God will help me, but right now, I am confused, and I need advice on this issue.
Any help willl be appreciated, I am desperate, and I am confused.