I’ve questioned my queer envy for priests since half year ago. Perhaps some active members on this forum would have recognized my starting numerous threads of queries.
My spiritual director confirmed some ‘primitive’ signs of vocation and encouraged me to pray fervently and humbly to seek out the truth. May I be more generous to God’s whatever plans. May I duly fulfill my daily obligations only for the love of God. Amo quia amo, amo ut amem.
May I be kept in your prayers so that I will gradually be more open to God - a hundred times ‘Yes’ every day and let Him lead me to anywhere!
Suddenly the half-year doubt was dismissed, all my envy for priests vanished, and I feel much more peaceful when I let God replace my Reason…