I would appreciate your advice on how to handle this situation.
I ended all contact with my father a few months ago after a very long period of suffering and anxiety caused by his behaviour towards me. I am working towards forgiving him and letting go of the hurt. I don't want to live in the past but be a free, healthy person God wants me to be. I don't know if we will ever reconcile - it would be great if it happened but I am not exactly optimistic. I sometimes pray for him.
Things were going well and I slowly started feeling ok about things and accepting the situation without too much anger and bitterness, but then I went home for 2 weeks. I wonder if that was a mistake because several of my friends who know about the situation insisted on talking about it. They wanted to know if my father and I have been in touch, if I planned to contact him, etc. They expressed concern about this situation and hoped things would work out. All nice and well, but this kept going on and on and on. I had the same conversation with 3 friends several times and they just wouldn't leave me alone. I tried to explain that even talking about it was causing me serious stress but that didn't stop them from giving unsolicited advice.
I left home feeling awful and it seems like I am at the beginning of the road once again, not sleeping, talking to myself, having imaginary conversations with people in which I try to explain to them why I feel the way I do. This is driving me crazy and I want it to stop. But obviously, people will ask me and with best intentions tell me what I should do. It seems that I can't get rid of this nightmare no matter what I do.
Could anyone suggest a way I deal with this? I've had councelling in the past and spent a long time talking about it. I don't intend to go back to that but look to prayer instead, and want to find healing in God. Any advice how to get there would be appreciated, as well as how to handle well-meaning people who ask too many questions.