Every week I’ve been going to parishes in the areas Lenten Confessions on Monday at 6:00 pm. I recently got into a honors society thing at college called Phi Theta Kappa. They will have an induction ceremony tonight at 6:00 pm.
As you can see, this creates a conflict. I am too busy during the week to go to daily Mass and ask father there (except on Friday.) To make matters worse, I asked father for confession yesterday, he was unable to do it because it was Palm Sunday and it was too late, so he asked me about going to the Lenten Confession on Monday and I didn’t remember the Phi Theta Kappa induction ceremony. Now father’s going to be expecting me and I won’t be able to show up.
Which event should I attend? My college is about 30 minutes away from my house. My parish is about 6 minutes away from my house. I don’t know how long the induction ceremony will take. Even if the induction ceremony ended at say 6:30, I would have barely any time to get to Confession, and on top of that my mother was thinking of coming and she wanted to eat out afterwards.
What should I do? Should I attend a once in a lifetime event but risk burning in hell forever, or should I go to Confession and hopefully not sin before death?
Edit: I don’t know if I mentioned this: I know for certain that I have sinned. I committed quite a few sins and most of them (except anything involving gossip) all had Grave Matter, Full Knowledge, and Full Consent. I wish I could stop sinning, but I can’t as I don’t fear Hell for the most part anymore, and I fear that I don’t love God. I wish I hated sin, but it’s hard.