I consider myself a lone wolf muslim-- I’m a muslim that [genrally] doesn’t fit in with other muslims. A lot of what calls itself Orthodox Islam is focused on the outward part of the Shariah, like prayer, zakat, marriage and being up-to-date on political issues. Those are great-- I’m not knocking that. However, in my experience, the ones who identify as ‘Ahlul Sunnah’, or ‘sunni’, often overlook the internal aspects of Shariah (intention, humility, compassion, patience, relishing in ecstasy, etc).
I also don’t like the fact that many muslims make dua, a form of prayer/supplication, because of circumstance, but not out of conviction. In other words, making dua when there’s something you need in the temporary world, but hardly ever making dua for spiritual things. Every Friday that I’ve been to a masjid, the Imam goes to the front of the congregation and says something to the effect of “Brothers and sisters, please make dua for so-and-so who’s injured in the hospital, please make dua for this person as well, who is about to undergo surgery…”…and on and on.
I’ve got nothing against praying for someone who’s sick or poor or whatnot, but, with all due respect to the Imam, what about praying for our community to see the sweetness of faith in the one true God? when’s the last time we prayed for more opportunities to share our message with the world? why treat the glorious gift of dua as if it’s a check list?
So, while many of my muslim brethren are arguing about their favorite scholars as if they’re sports fans arguing over which sports star is the best, I’m sitting in the corner, weeping over the Mercy of Allah azza wa jal. I’m too conservative for the non-religious, but I seem to be too liberal for many of my dear muslim brothers and sisters (they haven’t said that to me, but those are the vibes I’m picking up).