I really need some nice, friendly Catholic advice here. I am in a torubled marriage. We’ve been married 10 years now. For the longest time everything seemed great between me and him. We’ve overcome many crosses together including having 3 children - 2 with severe medical diseases.
However, we have several issues. Finances are very tight because I am home caring for the kids. The medical needs of the children are extensive and go well beyond check-ups now and then. One child is on a feeding tube at night. If I were to work, I fear I wouldn’t last long because of all the days I would need to take off in caring for the kids. Ultrasound this day. Delaware that day. Dr. This day. Medical delivery that day. and on and on and on.
My husband is always angry with me. He lashes out and blames me for everything. I often go to my room and seek comfort from the Blessed Mother through the Rosary, which helps.
My husband is non Catholic - he’s Baptist and it never was a big issue before. But ever since I’ve been praying more and taking Catholocism more seriously ( in other words I’ve grown spiritually), he’s been more hostile. However, he doesn’t attend his church at all.
I’m battling depression and on medications. He thinks its nonsense and that I don’t need the meds. He gets mad when I ask him for the money to pay for them.
I’m trying to earn extra money by selling avon products because he says I spend too much money. This way I’ll have an account separate for my “personal spending”. (however, now I’m “selfish” ) Yet I rarely spend money on myself for extras. My 2 best sweatshirts are ones I had just after I graduated Highschool. I have sweat pants that are 9 years old that I wore when I was pregnant with our first child. The spending he refers to are necessities for the house and family. Pull ups for the baby, cleaning products (yet I “do nothing” if I don’t clean) , general house hold items.
He apparently has different moral values as he’s very into pornography. He doesn’y pay for anything - but he visits websites and watches free videos. I recently installed the K-9 web protection. Mainly to prevent the kids from stumbling upon it - but also to block him from using it.
He’s all over me about money - but a few weeks ago he spent money online for football pools. ($20 - but still that’s bread milk cheese and cereal )
I feel like he doesn’t love me anymore. It’s rare for him to say something nice. It would be nice to get a hug once in a while. It would be great if he could help me some days with doctor visits. I feel very alone. I offer all this up for the souls in purgatory, but I often wish things were easier.
In the spring we were fighting alot. until we had a big sit down to talk things out. He said he loved me and wanted to work things out. Since then we haven’t argued, yet something still felt off. But - I was enjoying the peace. However, his comments are starting up again including the ones about my meds. I’ feel like I’m hanging by a thread and he doesn’t care.
I could use some prayers and any advice