I’m not sure where to begin. But i’m really exasperated, it seems like i am in a vicious cycle and cannot break free. I really don’t understand why God is not giving me the desire of my heart, even after praying for so many years.Or is he punishing me?
I’m 30, single and really lonely. I’m a pretty friendly person and have had many friends. But most of them are now married and have moved on.My family lives very very far away, so most of the time i am by myself when i’m home(and not at work).
I’ve never really been in a relationship and that is playing heavily on my mind. I have seen people in multiple relationships, sleeping around with beautiful women and enjoying themselves. some are now happily married. While i am still stuck in this rut.I feel robbed of having a partner and having that joy in my life. I don’t know where to turn or how to ‘fix’ it anymore. I have tried repeatedly in the past and now, but nothing changes. I also struggle with impurity and lust.
This loneliness and a desire for a partner(which is not being fulfilled) is really zapping me internally.
Please pray that God gives me grace to move on in the right direction.