I have been habitually late to work – so much that when I’m on time, people don’t realize that I’m even there! I tried to make excuses. Next, I tried to hide it. Then, I would be on time but not be where I was supposed to be. So, my supervisor’s going to have a “chat” with me tomorrow. I’m being written up. No, I’ve never had this happen before. This just isn’t like me.
I did a strong self-examen tonight. I realized that an underlying reason why I didn’t care about showing up on time was that I simply don’t respect my supervisor or my co-workers.
There are reasons why I’ve been passive-agressive in dealing with my peers. I don’t want to start rationalizing my behavior, or pointing fingers at the supervisor’s ‘pets,’ as that would only show petiness and jealousy. There really is no justification for my behavior. And now, I have been and hurting myself and my reputation (with management and the ‘clique’) in the process.
- So, dear friends, please pray for me that I take the consequences for my actions with grace.
- Please pray that I’ll recover from stumbling over a block I put in my own way.
- Please pray that I’ll be able to stay in the same company but move to another division very soon, as I’ve been half-heartedly doing before now.
This whole situation is pretty humiliating, probably ‘just what i needed.’ I really, really can’t wait for Saturday confession!