Please pray for me.
Many issues my and my family’s life.
My dad died last year, he is in a temporary grave currently at the Cemetery. He was cremated(per wishes) but we have chosen to bury his ashes there with a memorial stone per his Catholic beliefs not to be scattered. We are trying to organise something permanent but money and finances of cause is the issue. Running out of time. He died of Melanoma Cancer and I was with him the most during this time. Spent day after day at his side at the hospital(s) as he deteriorated. Saw some pretty eye opening behaviour from his “nurses” and young “doctors”. Some of it was terrifying. “Railroading people to the grave” is the best description of what I witnessed. Throwing dying patients around in their beds while they were terrified screaming. I was lucky to be at his bedside praying and holding his hand as he (unexpectedly) began to cross over.
I am getting a passport for the first time because I am going on a Trip to China(Hong Kong and Mainland) later this year. Difficult for a first timer to figure that all out. First time overseas and China isn’t my first choice (Israel - Ireland - France - USA in that order), but it’s what’s happening. I have decided to go with my 71YO mother who was born in Hong Kong.
Divorce is most likely in my immediate future. Haven’t seen her for two years(nearly three). She was abusively violent to me and basically abducted legally my young then 2YO child and flew 3000km interstate (although granted that was the State where I had originally married her, we had returned to our combined state of origin). What makes it worse is she planned the whole thing merticuliously in advance and used/Gaslighted both psychologically and in Court(my psychologist told me this is what she did to me and it is common tactic of abusers). It has tested my faith at times this happening(I have only been back to the Church twice, including once for my father’s funeral), but then alot of men go through similar trials and I have prayed for them too. We had only been married a few years at the time. If there is a Divorce I hope and pray an Annulment also happens and happens quickly. I have not seen both her and my child for several years now already. I do not know if I will ever get to see this Child ever again. I am strongly concerned my daughter will be abused and not raised well religiously, but feel totally helpless.
I am hoping to return to the church now, but as due to the fact I may be facing a Divorce(which she looks will initiate), I am frankly scared(have history of trouble with Anxiety too). I have been discussing my Religious faith with people again. And in the last few weeks have watched everyone of my favourite Religious films again. Gibson’s The Passion I have rewatched alot during this period.
Please pray primarily for my Father’s soul and his situation of his resting place be finalized. Of this I am actually most concerned. I believe God will sort out the other situations for me very soon in a positive manner. Pray I have less anxiety about going back to the Church.
I am open to any suggestion and any prayer.