Please pray for my marriage to my wife. For the past several years we've become distant. A very large part is my fault, by the way we have 4 beautiful children (5, 7, 12 and 16) During this time I was self employed and had a hard time making ends meet.. I started getting behind on bills and currently have collections again me. I'm currently paying them off. Basically during this time in our lives I forgot about my wife and I am so deeply sorry for that.
We have gone to a marriage counselor and it seemed to help. One of the things Karen wanted was for me to get a full time job, which I did. The other thing was for me to get help with is my ADHD and speak with a therapist.
I guess as time went on I forgot about it with all the running around, baseball, basketball, boy scouts, cub scouts , camping trips, failing business and tutoring plus all the other stuff life throws at us.
Bottom line I didn't do it!
Then a couple weeks ago we were at a baseball party for my 12 year sons baseball team.
I saw Karen talking to my sons coach and made a comment something like, "thats the happiest I've seen you in a long time, do you like him"
I was jealous that she seemed to be glowing with pure happiness at that point in time and it wasn't me that was making her feel or look that way.
God, I wish I can take back what I said so badly.
She has asked me to move out last week. I didn't realize what a gift I had with my marriage to her. We have 4 beautiful children and they are going through a lot as well. I am committed to making our marriage stronger. I have been going to mass everyday and praying the rosary every day as well (sometime 2 or 3 times a day).
I don't want to lose her.
I love her with all my heart.
I have made an appointment with my family doctor to see an ADHD specialist and possibly a therapist.
Please pray for us and our blessed sacrament of marriage.