I’m 20 and my now long distance ex girlfriend of 5 months yesterday told me she cheated on and she wants to end things. Things seemed perfectly fine and every day she would tell me how happy she was with me and loved me. She told me she loved me every single day without me saying a word or asking too. I never suspected anything. Then this happened yesterday and it hit me like a load of bricks.
I feel chest pain and so weak in the last 24 hours and I’m lucky to be home with my family for the holidays to help me deal. I knew this girl since I was 6 and everything seemed so perfect. It was really a miracle how I came across her again this past summer and it felt so right. She told me 2 months ago she could never ever do this to me and she wanted to be with me forever ect.
I was going to visit her in 5 days and she told me this yesterday and I did not even see it coming. She told me she was happy with me and wanted to marry someday even. She had 2 long relationships before me and I didn’t even question if she was capable of cheating. Anyway it happened and I am still trying to figure out God’s plan through this but I can’t and I’m hurting so much it’s a physical feeling too. I’ve had break ups before but this girl was different. I actually wanted to spend the rest of my life with her because it just felt right. I guess I was wrong.
I told her in the beginning all I wanted from her was honesty even if it hurts. She wasn’t honest. I didn’t even know she had a guy friend and she wanted to save sex for marriage and I did too yet she had sex with him on the fly and didn’t think about my heart and my love for her!
What’s Ironic is this time last year but a few weeks before now, my last girlfriend cheated on me too. I am thinking I shouldn’t date around the fall anymore because I got cheated on twice right before Christmas.
I learned my way the last time this happened and I felt this time it was for real because I felt God led me too her. I feel hurt that he would let this happen a second time and I can’t figure out what I can learn from this yet again with someone so much more closer to my heart and my first friend in life period.
I want to be closer to God but I want to feel that he will help me through this too.
I’m lost and hurt and am trying to move on. Please pray for me.
I will be going to mass in 45 minutes because all I need is to feel God’s presence right now. I could use any advice too.