I went to get a test, found a lymph node that looked abnormal, went again for more tests and now I’m going to be biopsied the day before the trial for Guardianship to see if the node is maglignant. Please pray for comfort and I do okay in court for I hear biopsies hurt and I want to be able to talk assertively, get my points across and think clearly. Please pray also that the Guardianship hearing goes well and whatever is God’s will, I will accept. To be truthful, I am more worried about my Dad than me. I love my Daddy so much. And I know whatever happens will be for the best. If I don’t get Guardianship of my Daddy, then the Lord knows the reason why.
You know, the things I’ve endured on this journey of mine has taught me a lot and I now know that God does not leave you when adversity hits you in the face. In my case, knocked me down…many times ;] But, I’m up, I’m up!
Oh, at the hospital, I told the Nurses and Doctor, I diagnosed myself. I said it was because I drink a lot of sodas and since that is all it is, I will be going home now. After they laughed, they told me this was necessary and they were going to do their job whether I diagnosed myself or not. hmph! lol (boy, did I mumble under my breath. Don’t they know I am a Wanna Be Doctor!) ha.
Anyway, all the Prayer Intentions I read today, made me cry. I wish there were no more sorrow, sadness, stress, anxiety, fear, lack of courage (I’m raising my hand on all of those) death and more. I will pray for you sweet ones. And please know before long we will all be in Heaven and never hurt anymore. For now, Jesus will never leave us when the devil slings his arrows to get us. Also, know I really, really care and God had a hand in that. I said that to let you know I am genuine and sincere. :love:
***:highprayer:*** The Merton Prayer
MY LORD GOD, I have no idea where I am going.
I do not see the road ahead of me.
I cannot know for certain where it will end.
Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so.
But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you.
And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing.
I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire.
And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road, though I may know nothing about it. (And if I know, I hope to always praise you for the blessings bestowed on me.)
Therefore, I will trust you always though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death.
I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and you will never leave me to face my perils alone. Amen
By Thomas Merton