I am a married father of three. I am struggling, again, with talking to women in inappropriate ways. I have hurt my wife again. I have not stepped outside my marriage physically, but my wife has been betrayed by my lack of willingness to confide in her. I am either unwilling or unable to completely open up to her.
She now feels trapped by me. We have moved to another country and she sees no way to escape. She can not trust me. I have continually lied and deceived her. I have used the internet to "escape" and it is obviously not acceptable.
I do not want to hurt my wife, yet I keep doing so. She has worked so hard at keeping us together and I seem to just slap her in the face with my actions.
I love my wife deeply. I love my children deeply. I feel lost and separated from her, even when I am with her. This feeling is not of her doing. She is a tremendously caring and loving person, yet I take this for granted.
Any prayers are gratefully appreciated. I not only need help mending the bridges I have shattered, but I need help getting closer to God and His Graces.
Thank you ...