Hello everyone again.
May I ask at what stage people think it becomes a grave matter not to honour your father and mother? And what dishonouring them may be?
I broke a strict rule they laid down to help limit my scrupulosity, and although they said that they did not consider breaking it sinful after I had done it, I feel like it was quite a act of betrayal.
More worryingly, I think, that night I became enormously distressed with various problems, having negligently disobeyed my father over another piece of guidance (I forgot to carry it out/ran out of time, but did not intend to disobey him - I could have been more careful). This distress kept my parents up and worried them enormously.
Acting like this was deeply unfair, and more so considering that my mum was taking me on holiday for a couple of days the next day, hence the need for sleep.
The evening prayer which followed this incident was very helpful, and I feel like much of my scupulosity is now in remission; the next day I had a much clearer view of God’s love, and the stupidity of many of my fears. But I am concerned that this act of disobedience, and perhaps disrespect, could have been a mortal sin.
Many thanks for your patience.