I keep falling for the temptation of looking at pornography and masturbation, and I can’t seem to break free. I fended it off for two weeks this time, and I actually thought it would be over, but yesterday and today I fell into it again.
I need prayer and advice. I pray to be freed frequently, I have an accountability partner… I try to do what I can. I dont want this anymore, I want to live according to the Christian faith!
Also I struggle very hard with what faith to follow. Both the Catholic and the Orthodox churches claim to be the original church. I am afraid of choosing the wrong thing, and it seems that no matter how long you have studied, there are people in both camps. For the present I am evangelical - though with moderations.
It is a real dilemma, because neither intuition nor intellect are flawless and those are the tools I have to decide what to believe. I want to be close to God, and I want to be in the Church that he started. It seems that the decision will be more or less random, and I dont like that! I could use a revelation, but those are not flawless either (of course as far as they are genuine and from God, they are).
Please pray for these two things.