Please help me God!!
My marriage is on the brink of failure, my Father died 2 months ago, my Mother needs me, my wife is full of demanding negative energy, I have turned to alcohol and porn and my daughter is a fragile emotional person that needs me as well.
I try so hard, but there is no pleasing my wife, I seriously beleive that she has fallen out of love with me, my Daugher is an angel who is doing so great, but her emotional needs are so great that its seems impossible to meet them.
I need to help my Mom and spend some time with her, but that time spent is hard on my wife who tends to spin everything towards the negative and I cannot possibly twist myself in the knots it requires to comminicate with her so she dosent think the worst possible is happening.
Work is going well, but its very demanding that I perform and by the time I get home, I just need to unwind, but I cannot, there is no comfort for me. so alvohol eases the pain, porn fullfilles desires my wife will not.
I feel so bad that I am displeasing God, I am hurting him with my failure, but I dont know what else to do. I terribly miss my Father and the comfort and strength that he gave me in life, but he is gone. Taken from me in my most needed time.
Please someone help me, I need you God. Please help me, I dont want to become an alcoholic and I dont want to lose my family and i have no where else to turn.
I need you God, please help me…I need some strength, I need some relief, I need something to believe in that wont go away, I need a path that will lead me to out of the forest and I cannot find it.
I hate drinking, I hate looking at porn, but it feels good and nothing else in life does right now…please help me stop, I really, really want to stop. I know its wrong, but all seems lost and what else is there?
Please help me…someone help me…I have no one to talk to in life, no one to turn too, only my faith and it seems like I am not dedicated enougth for my faith to help.
I am so lost…
And no help seems to be in sight…so alone…so alone…God where are you?