I have struggled with prayer in the past and recently it seems. I look for God, or at least try to. I want Him to be close to me. I feel something in my soul reaching out for the Peace and Love I know He can offer to my soul, and dearly wants to more than I can imagine, but I can’t find it.
I have always seen prayer as a journey closer to God, even since a young age. Granted, I was in the “I want an A on the Math test” prayer phase, but I quickly moved past that seeing prayer as a way for me to grow closer to God.
My struggle: I don’t feel or often see the effects of prayer, and so I sometimes enter phases (like now) where I avoid prayer because I just don’t see it as necessary. I know this is completely incorrect, because my soul needs oxygen too, but I don’t see the fruits of my prayer, and so I feel it does nothing.
In my human condition I know that I can’t always see God’s Will for me or my prayers, but I’m at a Catch22 because I can’t move forward in prayer. I’m stuck because of myself. I don’t know where to move from here.:shrug: