[quote="jeberle1970, post:15, topic:247359"]
Praying that your depression and anxiety lift and you can live life without these barriers. Since you have been diagnosed, I'm assuming that you are on some sort of anti-depressant medication (as well as anti-anxiety). I know that some people regard these medications as a crutch, but science has come a long way and these things can give people some real relief, so I would suggest being open to them.
Hail, Holy Queen, Mother of Mercy,
our Life, our Sweetness, and our Hope.
To Thee do we cry, poor banished children of Eve.
To Thee do we send up our sighs mourning
and weeping in this valley of tears.
Turn then, most gracious Advocate,
Thine Eyes of Mercy toward us,
and after this our exile show us the
Blessed Fruit of thy Womb, Jesus.
O clement, O loving, O sweet Virgin Mary.
Pray for us O Holy Mother of God
That we may be made worthy of the promises of Christ.
Thank you so much for your prayers. To answer your question, yes, the doctor did prescribe me zoloft, but I had to stop taking it because my body was too reactive to it; it wouldn't let me sleep. I was on it for three days and couldn't get more than three light hours of sleep each night that I was on it. After the third night I stopped taking it because I couldn't bear the physical stress of going three days without sleeping; the fourth night was my last sleepless night before my body was flushed of the medicine. I was physically exhausted and mentally anguished; I felt panicky, I had the shakes and I was throwing up my own bile. At the time I was convinced that I was going to die. I am better now, and naturally I've been a little wary about medications. I am still getting therapy, and I may talk again about some possible alternatives.
Anxiety has greatly improved, especially (to my great relief) the social anxiety, which has plagued me for many years and I believe is one of the main causes of my depression. I still have depressive episodes nearly every day; they are worst in the morning and at night. But I don't feel as lonely anymore as I have been overcoming social anxiety and improving my thought processes, moving past self-hatred and opening myself to others. That really makes the biggest difference. Faith continues to carry me through each day, and I really truly believe that I am blessed by all of your prayers. If it were not for faith I don't think I'd be here. I want to do my best to pray for all of you. If I can offer my sufferings for others in this forum struggling I would like to do that.