My prayer life has not been consistent. Even though I’ve been a professed Christian for a few years, I’ve never had as good a prayer life as I should have. In fact, I’ve gone a long way through my “Christian” life with a nonexistent prayer life. There have been many times when I’d remember to pray, but for some reason I would choose to ignore it, even though I’d have nothing better to do. There have been times when I’ve done things in the past just to distract myself from being able to pray, and I still don’t understand why I do this, especially since I am a self-proclaimed Christian. But this is something I hope to drastically change, because prayer is the most comforting thing I’ve ever experienced. It is so extremely comforting to know that I have a Heavenly Father who is unchanging and always there if only I choose to seek Him. In this ever-changing world of loss, doubt, and pain, I have an infinitely good, powerful, loving, and knowing Heavenly Father who will never change nor leave my side. I find indescribable joy in this. When my ex-boyfriend suddenly left me after I’d become convinced that I’d found my one-and-only, I was crushed. I went an entire seven months grieving over that loss. But when I prayed to my Father in Heaven, it’s like the pain was washed away, even if it was only temporary. I felt like I was swimming in an ocean of peace. And when I pray after falling into sin, I feel the same way. The same is true for when I’m praying for a difficult decision. And even when there is nothing apparently wrong, I find myself wrapped once again in that envelope of comfort.
I think we all need to take time to appreciate the connection that we can have with our Heavenly Father. He is ever-present, even through the darkest situations. To Him we can always turn. (So long as we’re not making Him our last resort!) I honestly pity those who have a poor or nonexistent prayer life, and I hope to improve my own.
Just wanted to share.