My heart breaks for you because we have similar situations. But rest assured, God is using this time to purify you for a purpose. He is calling you to get closer to Him, and let Him “call the shots”. Put all trust in God that God will work this out for your good.
Of course that is the tough part - what you think is for your good and what God knows is for your good. And of course, he could also be purifying your love’s heart/soul as well.
You and I have shared PM’s before about our situations. I lost the love of my life last year also and turned over my sadness to God.
God has used this time to bring me to my knees and pray and adore Him, trust Him and seek the Eucharist and His sacraments. So I have, and I have listened to the best of my ability. I have hope that this will work out as it should, and that God’s will be done.
I believe the Holy Spirit told me to hope, and trust and things would work out. My friends laughed at me, and told me to move on after a year of no communication - no earthly signs.
AND GUESS WHAT??? Almost 1 whole year has gone by, and yesterday I recevied a package in the mail. A surprise gift from him for no reason at all. Enclosed was a nice note. I emailed him today and thus - overnight, GOD has changed my world again!
God can change your world overnight,. when He thinks you are ready, and when it falls into His plan.
My best God given advice? Stay close to God and only listen to Him - no friends, no family. For they cannot see what He sees.
God is PURE love and only wants the best for you. Your job is to listen and praise Him. You are God’s favored child - He wants you to be happy. It’s all in His timing.
I will spend my time at Adoration in prayer for you.