You dear kindhearted people, when I saw this thread that you, Jhash1, so generously posted, and you, Luke65, LynneMarie, po18guy, Simon X, Tarek Chidiac, aimee, 244Rocket, and Maria have lovingly responded in prayer to, I felt dumbed and touched beyond words.
I was speaking to my parish priest in Confession yesterday,…we had time as no other penitents were around…and he does know of my activity on our forums as Prayer Warrior…and amongst other things I was telling him how much pain I often feel regarding what my brothers and sister go through, and sometimes I momentarily think of escape, wondering also if I do really contribute to you all. I told him that sometimes I find PMs in my box that come out of the blue and do express that my posts and prayers help, and that helps me to carry one…but I do have a tendency to understand as if the experience were mine, about anything at all my brothers and sisters feel or suffer, so it’s hard sometimes because one wants to help so much…and I believe we ***all ***feel like that. I’m amazed sometimes at the love and wisdom that goes out from so many people to those who need love and prayer…and help we often can’t give.
Father said he was going to mow the lawn and he’d leave the church door unlocked so I could stay with Jesus and ask Him all I wished to ask Him. That was my 'penance!!! So I got a chair and sat near the Tabernacle with Him for an hour and a half, talking “with” Him, and sometimes singing to Him, as I do. He’s been silent for a while and I guess I needed Him to let me know “we’re okay”, He and I, and that I’ve not drifted from Him in any ways, and am not disappointing Him in any way, and that I’m doing and being as He’d like me to…because we easily feel like that, don’t we, doubt about ourselves!
An unaccustomed headache I’ve had for a few days disappeared in the peace of being with Him…and last evening I found this loving thread, which I feel was His answer, but I was so touched and dumbed by its loving generosity, this love from my sisters and brothers whom I won’t meet except in the spirit till heaven, that I couldn’t respond.
I have tears in my eyes as I type. Thank you for your love, prayer and your generosity.
I ask Jesus to give special eternal surprises and graces to each of you for letting Jesus reassure me through you, and for the kindness of your impulses…and also for the faithful love, support and prayer that each of you also, faithfull give others. This thread could just as easily been for each of You! It was amazing that you did this, Jhash1! I would never have expected such a post. I’ve not seen one like it, making so clear it is Jesus speaking to me through His dear friends.
Much love, Trishie