This Wednesday, I am attending a retreat of the Confraternity of Penitents. It lasts from Wednesday to Sunday.
I am very excited, but a little nervous. I do believe it is God’s will, as I’ve felt a very strong urge to attend and everything is falling into place quite nicely.
Firstly, I’m blind and it’s a little scary going out to somewhere like this on my own, though I know I can do it. Thank goodness traveling arrangements have mostly been decided now; one of those attending the retreat is meeting me and giving me a ride. I am very grateful for that, and that relieves me a bit.
I feel like this has the potential to be very great for me, being very refreshing and helping me to grow spiritually.
I’m also entering formation in the Confraternity of Penitents, so hopefully I can see what they are really like while I’m there. I’ve been interested since last December.
I feel a lot of things shifting in my life, though I don’t know necessarily where I’m being led. But I do feel that this is a key part of that.
My fear with this is that I will think too much of myself and not focus enough on God during this retreat. I am usually very selfish, preferring my own comfort, something I am trying to overcome. Satan’s already used that once against me to temporarily draw me away from the Church. Fortunately I’m coming back, but I know it’ll get tougher the more serious I get about it.
So I would really appreciate if you would pray that I have a safe trip, and that this retreat is beneficial for me, helping me to grow closer to God and giving me a little more guidance. Further that God’s will is manifest in my life.
Thank you very much. I am very grateful.