I am currently discerning the Lord’s will for me and this last week will be the final week to make a decision.
I have felt, since full Initation into Christianity, a call to join the minor order of the acolyte. Now this is known as simply being an “altar server.”
I have sought the blessed intercession of St. Tarsicius in this “siege of heaven.”
St. Tarsicius was an acolyte who lived in Rome during the third century. His feast day is August 15. St. Tarsicius suffered martyrdom in the second half of the third century. St. Tarsicius is a saint because while carrying the Blessed Sacarament he was attacked by a pagan mob and instead of allowing the Eucharist to be destroyed he fought the mob and was stoned to death. He was buried in the Catacombs of Pope Callistus on the Appian Way.
All this started earlier this year.
I liked the idea at first because I feel God may be calling me to the Holy Presbyterium. Being an acolyte would be a good step in this process (perhaps a necessary one). Also my parish is my “home-away-from-home” so I am eager to serve my new family as best I can and they need acolytes for the daily Mass (which I attend).
Anyway as I further reflected on it, I started not liking the idea because I feared that I would not be a good acolyte, that I would mess up, that I would be unable to fit my schedule with my service, (you know, the usual doubts).
But then one-day I read an article by Fr. Dwight Lognenecker. He offered up the Pentecost Vigil Mass for our parish and I was awestruck at how beautiful the Mass of Paul VI really is (when done with devotion and reverence).
Anyway, that day on his blog, Fr. Dwight talked about the loss of the sense of the sacred and strongly advocated the return of ligturgical renewal and the preservation of the Mass’ sacredness, just as Vatican II had originally planned for the “Novus” Ordo Missae.
He said, (and I quote):
Bring on the incense. Bring on the beautiful vestments, Sing choirs of angels, roll in the trumpets and drums. Train the noble young men to serve at the altar as if they were servants in the halls of the Great King. Help the noble young women to sing the praises of the king with fine music. Preach the word with passion and beauty. Value the liturgy and take time to worship and see if your world is not renewed.
I was cut to the heart with his statement: “Train the noble young men to serve at the altar as if they were servants in the halls of the Great King.”
That is what I want to do for my Lord. To serve him in His Holy Temple where His Shechinah Glory dwells. To be His disciple and to add my devotion to the renewal and restoration of the beauty of the “Novus” Ordo Missae, and what the New Mass was meant to be.
Soon I will be asked to make my decision and I am seriously seeking the Lord’s will for me in this as I feel this is a big step for me.
Please pray for me that the Lord will make His will most abundantly known for His child.