I am writing some of this down to help me organize my thoughts and my own prayer intentions. I am feeling really stressed and overwhelmed. I am hoping some of you might pray for me and my family?
My husband got an amazing job offer in my hometown about a month ago with a consulting firm. He accepted. The company was willing to pay relocation assistance, a signing bonus, awesome benefits and excellent pay. I flew out to my hometown and decided on where we would live, we scheduled movers, etc. Our lease here in Philadelphia ends July 31st.
We just found out that “the awesome job” fell through. Something about how the company which DH would have been contracted out to lost a major client, and as a result, all contracting consultants assigned to that client, from his firm, have been let go and are now in line to receive new assignments from the firm. But, they are all ahead of DH and now he’s been told that they will most likely not have a senior level position for him between now and the end of July. DH is also bound by a non-compete clause until the end of August, which the firm has very clearly stated DH must adhere to. Meaning we are totally screwed when it comes to looking for a job with all the companies this particular firm contracts out to, given that our lease will end shortly and by that time we will not have a place to live and will need to have either a) moved without a job or b) stayed here in philly and re-signed a lease for another year.
We DESPERATELY want to leave Philly for a number of reasons. The biggest reason is gaining a support system–both family and friends. We also want to start adoption proceedings, and we know we can’t do that now when we are planning on moving. If we don’t move this year, we would try again next year, which make all of our adoption proceedings delayed ANOTHER year.
We are lonely here in Philly. We do have a few friends, but they are busy starting their own families or are much older than us. We do not have family here–DH’s parents live here, but they are poisonous and actually borderline stalkers. (His mother is an unmedicated bi-polar and has a host of other issues.) We have not seen them in going on two years but they continue to send mail, do drive-bys, leave voicemails from endless numbers, emails from constantly new addresses, etc. We were very much looking forward to being left ALONE.
We have a little over 50 days for 1) a miracle to happen and DH gets a new assignment with this firm, 2) decide to move without a job and take the risks that come along 3) stay here in Philly for another year and try again next spring…
Something else weighing very heavily on my mind is my little brother. He left this week for further training before heading out to combat in Iraq. I am especially concerned because he will be in Mortuary Affairs–not his original MOS–but because there is a shortage and a need, they tapped his unit. He is a marine nuclear-biological-chemical specialist. I worry about not just his safety, but the emotional toll it would take on any soldier to recover fallen military personnel, day in and day out. I know it is a duty and an honor to perform that last act of mercy upon the bodies of men and women who have given their lives for our country, but I can’t help my own personal worries for him. He’ll also be doing “regular” duties–convoys, patrols, etc. None of it is safe. Of course, my brother is not the one quaking in fear over this, it’s just me (and my other sisters).
Any prayers or encouragement would be so appreciated. Sorry to complain about this. I am just so stressed and anxious.